Square One

Isn’t that where you go when you need to start over?  When all else fails?  That’s where I need to go.  I got to my Weight Watchers meeting with high hopes.  I had tried hard since getting home from Atlanta on Monday.  I’d written everything down.  Only thing I wasn’t tracking was my Weekly Points Allowance because I had used all I had over the weekend.  (At least I think I did)  I still calculated anytime I went over my daily Points.  I didn’t feel good physically this morning, I felt bloated and vaguely sausage like.  My anxiety was proved correct when I got on the scale and I had gained a pound and a half.  If that wasn’t bad enough that weight put me at Exactly 2 pounds over my goal.  That means if I gain any more, I pay.  THAT IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN!

Which is why I’m going back to Square One.  I’ve done this program for a very long time and I know what is necessary.  Regardless of my experience, I can still foul things up, which obviously I have.  So I start over.

It probably shouldn’t have happened, but Ralph wanted to go to a Chinese restaurant for lunch so I relented.  Under ordinary circumstances, I would allow myself some flexibility on a Saturday, but I must admit, I felt guilty doing this today.

Egg drop soup.   I think I was feeling so guilty that I didn’t really enjoy this very much.

I ordered from the lunch menu and got veggie delight-veggies and tofu and requested brown rice instead of white.  This was very good, but again I didn’t enjoy it as much as usual, because I do believe I was feeling guilty.

Obviously, I need to get a new game plan…Go back to Square One.  There’s going to be a lot of planning going on around here in the next few days.  I do seriously need to get back on track and I’m the only once who is able to make the changes necessary.  So between reading the new books I got today both from the library, library book sale and a thrift store…oh yes and watching monster movies on Turner Classics…I’ll be planning my come back!

Happy Sunday!!


24 responses to “Square One

  1. glad you got some books, fran – that will brighten your day/weekend!
    i hope you can get back to feeling relaxed and on track!

  2. Guilty is probably the worst feeling. 😦 I hope that you can get back on track…and let yourself enjoy splurges at restaurants, since you’re making better choices the rest of the time!

    • Thanks, Stephanie. I’m just in a funk at the moment. Basically, not very happy with myself. A lot of it has to do with the fact that I’m not sure what happened here. I WILL get back on track, I promise. As always, thanks so much for your support!! Have a great Sunday!!

  3. It’s true when you feel guilty things just don’t taste as good as they normally do! Good for you on jumping on those 2 lbs and dealing with them straight away.

  4. Like you said, you know what to do! I have faith.

  5. Aw, I’m sorry you couldn’t enjoy your lunch. I don’t track my weight but I’ve definitely had the experience of the husband wanting to go out when I feel like I should be fasting due to the indulgences the day before. It IS hard to enjoy. You’ll conquer this though, I just know it! Today is another day!

  6. We’ve all been there…I think the fact that you’ve identified that you do not want to start having to pay is a good “line in the sand.” So, now that you see the line, you can work on ways to not “cross over…”

  7. So sorry that you couldn’t enjoy anything because you felt guilty…I think we can all relate to that in one form or another. Sometimes I can’t enjoy a night out because I feel guilty I’m ignoring Maya! It’s not easy, is it?

  8. I hear you Fran. Sometimes the scale is just not nice, but you don’t really need it because like you said, you can almost gage what it’s going to read. I think we’re all constantly trying to get back on track with various things, it’s a good thing 🙂

  9. ah, yes. I start over every month on weight loss! It’s a constant vigilance. That’s why it’s so hard…it’s unrelenting. I wish eating was like smoking, where you just had to stop altogether. I think what would be easier. Eating is something we have to do…can’ tjust stop that altogether!

    • Mare, you’re so right! That’s exactly what I used to tell my members when I was a Weight Watchers leader. We can’t give it up all together, like smoking or drinking. We have to deal with it every single day. Frustrating but true. I’m glad everyone seems to understand! Thanks!

  10. I’m sorry the weigh in wasn’t great, but Fran, you can do this!!! 🙂 Square one is the best place to start 😉

  11. Hey Friend! Way to get back on that horse…you’ve got this!!!!! 🙂

  12. Don’t feel guilty Fran, you look so good and have done so well and I’m sure it was better not to worry on holiday and put on a pound and a half than have been thinking you couldn’t have things while you were there… you’ll be back on track soon 🙂

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